hurm hurm

Dear young tall buddy,

shud i call u a liar?
shud i call u a cheater?
shud i call u a betrayer?
shud i call u a sweet talker?
shud i call u a pretender?
or
shud i call u a mean person?

hurmmmm..
i don't tend to call u any of above okay.
coz i noe.
there are reasons behind why u did it all tis while.
i wont even blame u for wut had happen between us.
mebi tis wut they used to call by fade.
if im in ur shoes.
i will do d same thing to cure d broken heart.
rebound???
mebi it da best term to describe ur situation now.
u tot by having a new rship will solve ur previous probs.
nope it wont solve anything okay.
stop playing around.
stop being Casanova.
playing others feeling.
acely u r not strong enuf.
still in fear to faced da truth tat u'll be hurt if u being loyal.
i noe u bein hurt several time.
u scarifies most of ur time to b loyal.
but at d end.
all of d afford u put thru worthless.
same goes to me.
i put my trust on u.
but u've just destroy it in just a second.
thanks okay.
whats goes around comes around.
its tyme fo me to faced the truth.
the fear tat i afraid d most.
afraid by losing u.
im so damn speechless okay.
how dare u done this to me.
i tot u'll be honest.
but...
i wont give any comment on tat..
now im willing to let u go.
if it d only option to set u free.
free in doin things tat u love to.
free from listening me nagging day by day.

hurmmm..
when i think back wut we bein thru in da past.
it will made me smile continuously.
unmeasurable happy feeling when im wit u.
u da one who bring da joy in me when im down.
when i need sumone to accompany me when i feel lonely.
u always b there for me.
thanks kay.

hurmmm.
when we used to hangout.
i'll always b da main victim coz of my ignorance using signal.
bein so damn reckless while driving.
listen to ur mumbling non stop.
'u ni semangat sgt nk cter sampai xtgk keta kt tepi'..hahaha
i noe sumtyme i drive like an insane person.
'kalo i jd jpj examiner.i xkn bg u lulus lgsg tao'..hehehhe
thx for d advices.
but im still d old stubborn Atiey.
even how hard u try to push me listen to ur advises..
i wont listen to it till i realize d benefit by doin those things.
heeeeeeeee

still remember d day we hangout at JJ Wangsa M???
'u ni mmg kakak terbaek la'..
coz i bring along my lil angels.
Nana n Farihan plus 'blur nik' too..
u r so damn talkative at d moment hvg our dinner at KFC..
we chat nonstop till i received double shot calls frm k.ida..
yanking at phone till i lose my appetite finishg my fav FF..
to make it more unforgettable..
by tat time when d exit ticket didn't function well..
oppss..
no la..
acely its our fault ma..
we pay earlier but exit la8 more than 15 mnts rite??
hahhahah..
being penalize:have to pay extra 50cent..
hahhahahha

goshhh..
so many sweet little things happen in sudden.
still remember d last day i met u.
u seem a bit mad.
yes i admit i done mistake.
u act totally diff.
it juz like talking wit a stranger.
u not being urself anymore.
d talkative plus fun teasing person seem to fade away on tat day.
even i try damn hard to put a smile on u.
u still less talk wit ur fake smile.
but its okay laaa..
i xmara u pon..

hurmm...
yes i admit im a very ego kinda person.
sumtyme ego can save me from fall over n over again.
its reli hurt.
im hurt not bcoz u cheating on me.
im hurt bcoz u being lying during our rship period.
u being dishonest.
talk lies..
its reli hard to accept but i still need to faced da truth.
mebi tis is d feedback i get fo always take thing for granted??
mebi its true.
i will try to appreciate gud things often in d future.
thanks for wake me up from tis fairy tales journey okay.

Owhh goshhh.
it felt like wake up from long sweet nap.
when i realize tat things have changes juz like a finger taps.
tap tappp..
no more day dreams Atiey.
everything changing in sudden once i open my eyes.
no more morning greeting..
no more sweet teasing..
no more fun laughing text...
no more love sharing words...
no more this..
no more that..
it all gone..
its already gone!!!!!

hurmmm..
if being silent is d only option left.
i will choose to keep on silent..
i wont disturb d happiness in her eyes.
if i done tat to her now.
mebi I'll facing d same circumstances by ruin others rship.
perhaps nope.
im not kinda type of girl..

hurmmm..
i still have my 'backbone'.
as he always b there for me.
u noe wut???
he have changes lots.
now he noe how to manage time wisely between me n his work..
it impressed me lots..
cherish me more often.
made me happy even tgh I've done bad things to him.
even tgh i 'awarding' him 'harsh punishment' for his past mistakes.
but he still keep on trying.
try to grab back 'his baby girl'..
never give up..
sumone who noe me well than u do.
sumone who i can call a lover coz made me feel d 'spark in love'.
provide me 'shelter' so tat 'his baby girl' wont be 'drown' twice..
thanks Manjer.

hurmmm..
u dun have to b guilty wit wut you've done to me.
im da one who feel it as im being d parasite in ur life.
disturbing u all d time..
sorry..
'love is only a feeling'..
i do feel it for the past * weeks..
but i don't pretty sure if d 'love' still exist or already gone since i noe d truth..

hey young tall buddy,
i'll miss u much.
especially ur 'tallness'..
im 155cm n u 177cm..
heee..
but I've to keep my distance away from u.
stop playing others feeling.
pliss stop okay.
just remember tis.
just assume it as my last advices to u.
"LIVE.LOVE.LAUGH."
that's all u needed at tis moment kay.
never regret for thing tat u've done.
coz I've already forgive u.
I'll pray for ur happiness.
just be happy.
just be happy.
just be happy.
just be happy.

sorry for everything as behalf of me.
Atiey.ZB.gud rascal gal.
mebi next time.
i'll throw away d 'rascal'.
n just being a gud gal indeed.
heeeee.
tata.
bubbye!!!

(i've delete everything that'll remind me of you.Please correct me if I done wrong.Sorry for all the burden I've put u thru.Im tired.I cant take this anymore.So im deciding to leave.Just stay happy.Take care you!!)

P/S:

make a gud start in ur new sem okay.
gud luck in study yaaa.

Atiey M
=)