TED =(

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A sudden mood swing occurs...

I don't know what's wrong but I just feels

like tearing..

But after a few days I will feels better and definitely

stop thinking such nonsense...

its almost 2 week plus plus he didn't come home..

i don't know how to face it if he already gone..

but at one level i used to go out searching for his dead body (maybe) by roadside..

but i've found non which matching with his orange and white fur..

ohh my goodness..

i miss him damn much even-tough i didn't give him enough love as much as i gave for others..

the last time i saw him on 16 may 2010..

A day before i off to Gombak..

he back home just for a while..

really just for a short time showing his face..

rolling his body on the floor..

roll roll roll..

i call him several time..

he didn't come to me like usually he did..

just keep on rolling till when i make a second turn..

he's already disappear out of sight..

that the very last time i saw him..

now when I'm thinking bout him..

i feel highly regret coz i didn't feed him for the very last time..

till now..

i still searching but this time abit difference than before..

If he already dead..

I'm willing to let him go..

and I'm hoping to notice his dead body if i found it..

coz i want to bury him peacefully...

but if he still alive..

hope that HE can show him the right way back home..

but if anonymous take him and keep it as their own pet..

i'll not willing them coz that person totally get my nerve on..

stealing things that not belong to you is totally wrong..

and u'll get the feedback by doing such inappropriate action to others..

its a karma..

what come around goes around..

Maybe i'll suffer now coz losing my cat but that person i'll lead the same ways to if they lost their on cats..

Im not cursing others..

that only in case if my cat being stole by other person..

But now i just need to calm down...

praying that one day I'll meet him back either dead or alive...

At this moment i just I pretend I'm fine when I've reach home..

crying myself silently trying to hide every emotions to myself..

facing it myself so hard...

the pain I've went thru...

i bet u don't know how it feels like being a cats lovers..

maybe it sound funny for those cats hater..

but for cats lover it feel like dying when your cat is missing..

the moment when I stepped into the cold floor...

It seems to stopped when I step into that square room..

but I couldn't stop tearing coz I still has to go on alone...

I miss you so much TED ARE KITTY..

please come home soon..

please make it real..

please..

=(

PS:

Ted is a male cat..

name given by Fateh coz at that moment he can't pronoun word 'cat' properly..

he call him 'Ted' instead of 'Cat'..

so that's how Ted get his name of..

Atiey M

=)