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Hi readers,salam.
Its been a while since my last update here.Time flyby superb fast.I'm currently stay with elder sis of mine,Kak Ida.Sometimes smiling away is a better way of passing times.I know my word seem abit poetry,sorry readers.Im feeling trouble due to reasons of homesick & missing my parent frickin' much.I just can't hide my feeling anymore like seriously okay.Slightly moody today.I just feels like bursting into big tears this whole evening.Just now while hiding in toilet wanted to cry out loud.It was at the moment of my own.Feeling like everything around me seems to stop & even the clock has stop ticking.I wanted to hide my feeling inside,but i just can't control it anymore.Went shopping some groceries with lil sisters this evening.Nana requested to make Choc moist cake.So we three,me,Nana & Farihan went to Giant bought ingredients needed.While fun picking up things,Nana accidently mention out bout Abah & Mak.
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Nana : Atiey,rindu la kt Mak & Abah.Tringat time beli brg2 ngn mak kt Tesco.
Me : Haah la.Rindu sgt-sgt.Nk balik Perak.(stop & starting to cry)
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I can't hadly hold my tears anymore.Since stayed here,i never missed to cry.I cried before i sleep,i cried way too loud when i took my shower,right after listening to parent voice thru phone,while peeps on their pictures thru hp,after taking my bfast,lunch & dinner.Yes,I cried almost every single days.Maybe it sound funny to some of u,big girls shouldn't cry right??I love my job,i really enjoy it much but what's killing me inside was the hurt feeling being miles away from parent.Sumpah,rindu sgt kt Abah & Mak.Sgt-sgt rindu ='(
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I miss every single thing at home.My cats,fishes,Kuma-kuma,green-purpleliciouch room & i miss Abah,Mak & Adek the most.Still fresh in mind how's Adek's respond when i told her i'll be leaving & stay with Kak Ida onwards.She was numb & speechless & suddenly i saw tears rolling down her cheeks.
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Adek :Eleh,hg tipu la.Taun dpn kn baru start keja??
Me : betol la adek,Kak start keja Isnin dpn 1 Nov.Ni Kak balik jap nk ambik brg2.
Adek : Alaaaaaaaaaa.Nnt adek tggl sorg jea la ngn Mak n Abah (she's starting to cry)
Me : Haah.Nnt tggl adek jea la kt umah.(givin' fake smile & hardly hold my tears)
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It was freaking emotional day ever for us.Since I completed my study,i never being apart from my parent & Adek.I'll always there for them.Everynight i'll spend time online till Abah force me to sleep.Every night i'll drag my portable mattress with red & bear pillows plus favourite Kuma-kuma slept over Abah & Mak's room.Every free times i'll cook any kinda food & made Choc moist cake,cupcakes for them.But now,things had totally changed.I am no longer burden them anymore.I already got a job,so more-less i need to stand on my own feets from now onwards.I really need to rid away this 'homesick' feeling far far far far away.Please 'Mr Homesick'.Im begging you please leave!!!Please ='(
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Okay laaa,I think i better take my fingers off this keyboards before it geeting worse.Yes,I really need to stop now.Just can't stop my tears anymore.Salam buddies.
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PS:
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Atiey rindu nk makan masakan Mak.
Atiey rindu soup gear box Abah.
Atiey rindu nk marah Adek kalo dea buat silap.
Atiey rindu semua org.
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Atiey M
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