Mood: Hardly missing my parent & Manjer freaking lots.Benci betol cuti kejap jea =(
RE:Purely from Cik Nadia heart.Just wanna share regardless other bad- intentions okay.She's my best buddy & frankly,its kinda hurt when im just managed to listen thru her sad stories with doing nothing.Sorry yunk.
Hey Buddy,
We’ve been friends about 1 month 25 days. Ahha, im surprised that along this relationship, we’ve been so close like we know each other before. Texting non-stop, calling-calling every night without failed, thats enough to make me feel happy and complete, even though there is no special-love relationship. Just FRIENDS! Yess, we both are just friends! A good friends rite?? I was so interested to know you, listening to ur bullshit -makcik face-girlfriend story, listening when u r downgrading urself, felt humiliated by other people regarding ur past also entertain u by singing along with u just to make u feel comfortable.
Hey mangkuk, did u know that, all the worries and cares was truly sincerely from my heart? It is not “buat-buat” when u say ,
- cik, i miss my late gurl.
- Cik, i dh fed up, i dah ready bila dia mnta break.
- Cik, knpa org suka ungkit kisah silam i? ..
and i, with none of any qualification on psychology treat keep replying on ur msg, tell u that, im always be here for u, im always support u, bla-bla-bla,..
Im also a human being buddy. Sumtimes i cannot control everything. I have feelings ( so do everybody), sumtimes im happy, sumtimes im sad, boring, feel bad, moody, lonely. What do u aspect from me? Always have to be nice to u? Always need to be cheer for you? Seriously, i care for u buddy, but this is all about a very-very tiny words..and the war begin...
U mad..yes u mad..my apology could be a hundred times? Possible..u’ve change drasctically. Why? Before this “confrontation”, i’ve noticed why u hve been so quite? . U ignored my msg for three nights (hahaha)..n u didn’t reply them until u received the next msg. Its unusual man.. am i doing any wrong? The things would be simple if i didn’t loves u more than we thought. If not, why shud i care more about you? Why shud i think more about you? Its so chaos.
Im not a calculative person. Cause i know, u r not type of person. But, im tired buddy! Im tired to listen, im tired to argue, im tired to watch every step of my mouth, im tired im tired im tired.
Bloggers, this is not a big matters to be advertise. Im talking about, dun let urself down into people u just knew. Even as a friend, like what i did..i assume this guy unpredictable (at the first place).. but now, he is more “mengada-ngada” and play fool on me. Haha, i am a big pusher. Im sorry for that MNAR.
I just want to be clear. I dun like myself being query here and there. I hate the “?” in my head. I dun want u to mad at me. I dun want u to hate me. I like u. But , to live with u, was not in my 3 years to-do list. Dun get me wrong mangkuk! I need to confess to a guy i’ve fall with. Its just a confession!!!! Im not pushing u to accept me as ur gf! Im not pushing u to always be with me..im pushing to find the answer, why u being so different? U may not realize that, n i dun hope for any feedback. Im just hope we can be good like before. But, will i get that chance? Ur last msg,” i x benci u..ye i marah, tpi i dh maafkan. So xpyh la pnajng2!!!” n we both choose not to text each other until now.
This is stupid..but i miss u.totally miss u. It is hard to forget u. But i try. Cause i know u will not find me anymore. I have to clear my inbox+sent items, all the entry calls, ur number..to stop me from thinking every piece of u. Go and live with ur lonely-empty world cause u’ve said u r not qualified to be friend with anybody. I will not go anywhere. I here. Im around. Do text me, do call me. But i cannot promise u i will reply any of them. *the percentage of this assumptions is 15% only !. he will not do that bloggers! He hates me..yes he did.
Here are some song that i dedicated to him. Plus, that we’ve being singing together. Find this song bloggers, find the lyrics. N u may understand how was beautiful this relationship. His happiness goes to me too..even it is just 1 month plus!!
- To loves You more –Celine Dion
- The Blowers Daughter- Damien Rice
- Most Girl- Pink
- Rapuh – Opick
- i’ll be there -Jackson 5
- Killing Me softly- Jackson 5
- Ku ada Kamu-Adira
- Lucky – Jason Mraz&Colbie Cailat
- Mengenangmu- Kerispatih
- Hey Jude-The Beetles
I felt lonely. BFF could help at tis moment, but u will need ur soulmate more. Who’s gonna be my soulmate? Thanks yunk. U help me to let it out. U heard me cry, u let me talk and talk. I admit to u, the first time i knew this guy, i want this guy so badly. He’s different. He’s not like others. Im not perfect, im not pretty, im not highly educated. Everybody deserve for a better person. So do me. But, i didn’t show to him, i didn’t seduce him. I didn’t flirt on him. I am me. I am what i am. Its totally me. He said he loves me. He said i shud be his good friends. I shud stay with him. I cant pretend my feelings, i m happy.
Bloggers, u can say..im stupid, i’ve being cheated. I accept that. But, i’ve learn sumthing new. I’ve learn my mistakes. So this is all about feelings. Guilty. Ego. Selfish. Pls do not judge me. Just read. Cause it is just a Confession!
PS:
See,i'd told you.This guy is a good example of 'Kacang lupa kulit'.
Atiey M
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