Dear manjer,
Since I don't usually blog recently,you must be finding it strange why i didn't wrote even short notes on your birthday.Firstly,i am so sorry i didn't managed to spend much time as i need to entertain my click during last Tuesday till Saturday.Really am sorry kay manjer.Secondly,i just had my blogging mood back right after finishing few edit thinggy on my site.Okay,okay,okay.I won't type on unrelated things,just make up with the topic i wrote above.What's so special about that date??Of course u already know it as it was your very own birthday date.Actually,to be freaking honest,i don't have any ideas how should i start this entry,but there's a thing for sure,this post entry might be the longest entry u ever had before.So,since we both are distances away,so much thing have been restricted but i love to make it a bit difference this time.maybe in present we're miles away but frankly,it wasn't bother me much as u'll always kept me near by your side.Thanks manjer,mucho-mucho gracias.
Okay,i just lost my words and i just don't know how to express what i feel inside.So many best part of us lingering thru my mind,but as i said before,i just lost my words so did my ideas too.Whatta hell am i crapping on??Im starting to screw up my head before its getting even worse.Sorry for being so damn lost okay.Okay,okay,lemme made it clear here.There's a thing for sure,I love you,I love you,I love you!!!See,there's plenty lots of love i feel inside when im with you.Since last 14 October was your 23rd birthday,so this year was equally to 5 times i'd wished & celebrated your birthday in previous & present as your gf.Yup,im the first & im still hoping im the last & only person mark in your heart.You'd see in so many ways.You'll always there when i facing the hardest part of in life & you'll always available when i need someone to share-off in every happiness,sadness,upside-down moments i'd been thru.Thank you Manjer.Now,i'd to admit i felt this immense urge to confess how good it feels to love you & how great all the affection that surrounds us is,even when you're not right there by my side.FYI,loving you & being loved by you is the best feeling I've ever experienced this whole life.I will always miss you terribly,but it's a sweet quite feeling,that'll go away as soon as i see your smiley faces.Maybe,i can told you million trillion time how much i feel blessed to have you as my bf,but i bet you'll never know how much im so in love with you.
You're the best bf any girl could ask for.See,when i talk bout you.It seem like there's so many sweetest thingy popup in sudden.Recall back on stuff you'd done,its really overwhelming me enough.Whenever I've problem & i just can't randomly share with gf,you'll always patiently listen to all those craps without causing me any grumble at all.Then you'll slowly give your advises & grabs away burdens i'd on my shoulders.You're exactly like my super heroes that'll punctually save your heroin.Manjer,i just wish that this year will be the last year we celebrate your birthday as couple,cause i just wish to upgrade our title asap.Yes,i know you're currently working on it,but InsyaAllah,if He'd state our fate together,i will always ready to be the half of you.Amin.Being away from you really drives me crazy & made me wanna be with you instantly.But as u'd told me before,keeping mind set positively.So,to comfort my feeling,i just think of this separation as a test.Yes,im a strong kinda girl & i can deal with it.If this is what it takes to be with you,then i'll just follow the flows & go through it.
You know what Manjer,you're the best bf i ever had.Yes i know i've told you hundred times,but this time for sure you're the right guy i wish to have this entire life.You're my friend,you're my shopping partner,you're my lullaby singer, more-less you means everything to me.Before i'd met you,i did't think much of my self as really anyone important,but you have brought out the best in me.Sorry,i know sometimes i may got mad when you started to compliment me,telling me that im beautiful since I obviously don't believe it,but I'd realized that you only want me to see what you'd see in me.Even if i don't believe that is possible.You'd seen more in me than anyone in this world did-including myself.You'll always kept on telling me,im the most beautiful person u'd,inside,out & u see that more clearly with each passing days.
Frank speaking Manjer,i was extremely speechless & i just don't know how to express how thankful am i to Allah cause He'd sending me a good guy like u.Ever since you've entered my life,I've been flying on Cloud 9 & i don't wish to come down yet.I love everything bout you,about us.You'd gave me the most amazing feelings inside,the feeling of being in love with you.I did pray everyday,may Allah bless our relationship,may His bless accompany in every seconds of our moment together.He'd completely trial & test me on several things & i should thank,praise for Him as He'd opened my eyes in many ways beyond my expectation.Thank you Allah.
See,i'd told you this entry might be long,but i haven't made any wishes yet =) So,i would like to take this opportunity to wish you:
- Happy 23rd birthday Manjer.
- Sorry for not being there on your big day.
- I don't expect you to be better but i just like the way you're.
- Hope you'll successfully 'catch' all your dreams.
- Do stay sweet like u'll always did.
- Good-luck in becoming well trained bowling player in future.
- I sayang you regardless of anything else.
- Find for good job.
- Love me more then yesterday.
- I'll wait for your rings.
PS:
I frickin' love your 2nd birthday wishlist Manjer,but i don't wish to publish it here.It was just between us okay.Promise!!!Frankly,it was the sweetest wishlist ever.
Hope your dream'll become true & ASAP.Can't hardly wait to celebrate your candy moment together.See you superb soon birthday boy.Sorry if my words making you sick to finish on as there were broken English here & there.Sorry kay Manjer.Just assume that you'll able to understand it.I sayang you ketat-ketat =)
Atiey M
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